another day off

When my alarm first went off this morning, I could feel all over it was going to be one of those “fighting with dysonia every step of the way days.”  I can feel every single vertabrae and they are going separate directions.  My left rib cage does not want to expand and contract, it just wants to contract and I can’t seem to get a full breath.

It’s one of the most frustrating things you can imagine.  Due to all my heavy duty muscle relaxers and the fact it’s not good for me to drive, I am allowed to work from home.  Every morning when I get up, I always hurt in some way.  But usually I can got the 40 feet from the bed, down hall, and across the living room to my desk.  Not today though!  The alarm first went off at 5 and it was after 8 I could make it.

Granted, I did fall back asleep during part of that time, but it wasn’t real sleeep.  It was like when you are in the hospital and you never seem to be able to really sleep sleep.   Once I finally got up, I had a little to eat because I have to eat with my meds, took my daily cocktail of 6 pills and added the big flexeril.

So now that I am still up for a short while, let’s take a short inventory of where I am having symptoms.  The backs of my hand, my left shoulder, then from my left collarbone right up to a point along my jaw at the bottom of my ear.  Then my whole spine, as some vertabrae want to twist right and some want to go left.  And my ribs ache like I got hit in the back with a baseball bat.

But now the good news.  I need to spend a large chunk of the day trying to get this all under control and if any way possible hit the gym.  I still have a half marathon coming up this Saturday.  I’m an oddball, every single thing on the planet can beat me down to the point where I just want to give up and hide away from the world, but if I can start my feet running I can go forever.

I don’t know how to explain it.  When it comes to running, I can suffer any pain and endure anything,  That much pain and endurance in anything else in life and I can’t take it.

So if I somehow can relax and calm it all down and then go run, I’m still not done today.  Today is my two year anniversary and I will be taking my incredible wife to the same sushi place we went on our wedding night!


About thejollyrunner

There's so much and so little time. The two most important things to know is I suffer from a condition caused Generalized Dystonia and that I love to run. Ironically, two things that don't mix are what now defines me. I have a whole variety of other interests such as my long standing devotion to the Texas Rangers. I am also quite the hunter, fisher, and all around outdoorsman. If I had more time and less dystonia pains, I would fit in more gardening, home improvement, and probably some amatuer astronomy. And lastly, while my life is regrettably being slowed down from the dystonia, I am trying my hand at writing. I have a lot of ideas and it would be nice to see if I have what it takes to create some works worthy of publsihing.
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